Looking back (which I shouldn't be, since I'm always the type who forgets once its gone), this year has been like a full blown roller-coaster. The upsides were extremely thrilling and flowery, while the downsides were like landslides and thunderstorms. I believe that every occurrences have their purposes that mold me into a better person, and I appreciate everything that has shot into my life, whether or not they've made me smile.
Definitely giving thanks to my family first (mommy and korkor), for the care and lectures. Although you guys can be a real pain in the ass at times, I still appreciate every word and gesture from you. I hope our relationship can be closer and better as time passes, though it's gonna be real tough based on our conflicting personalities and values. I will try to become a better daughter and sister so please don't give up on me (':
Next up will surely be my LEwondeRZ girls! I know I'm like the one who don't care, prioritize or contribute much, but I can say for sure that these babes are the ones I'm bringing through my whole life. To me, they are more than friends. They are like a family, a part of me, which is probably why I don't treat them as nice and formal (oops oops). I wouldn't say that they are the people I would hang out or click with for every occasion (I think my personality and theirs don't quite match), BUT they are the ones I truly love deeply and can't survive without. Hmmm, to me, they are like condiments. I won't really crave for them but nothing will be right without them. In the future years to come, I will try to show more love and appreciation to them.
Now now, my dearest poly kids! hahaha this gossip gang brought entertainment to a whole new level. Each time we meet and hang out, confirm will gossip one (not malicious don't worry). It's kinda funny how we're formed from our larger clique because we're the only ones who chose the poly route while the rest head for JC. Thanks for always hearing out my relationship problems even when it's so boring and yuck. I know life gets busier so it's hard for us to keep up with our weekly lunch/dinner, but I know the connection between us remains (;
I did not expect myself to say this but the next group of people I am grateful for is my class in Ngee Ann Poly. Trust me, I never thought I'd ever open up or interact with them (aside from school stuff) from the day I stepped into the class. Don't get me wrong, it's not that they're not good or I dislike them, it's just that I didn't want to get too involved in socializing and stuff. I was pretty aloof and anti-social in the first year but some of my classmates never gave up on befriending me. Which is why I'm quite close to them now and am grateful for their sincerity and genuine personalities. Can't say for sure that we'll still meet or what upon graduation, but as for now, I'm pretty chill with em.
Of course there are more people I wanna show gratitude to but ain't listing them all here. No hard feelings for those who became more distant because I think it takes two hands to clap. There's just so much time each of us can have, and I guess we just have to go with the flow. So what if the person you were once so close and chummy with is now someone you barely have contact with? You meet new people, so do they. I'm not tryna say just don't care or don't put in effort, it's just that it depends on situations, so try to be understanding and open-hearted about such issues. It may be a pity but if both parties are cool with the lives they have now, why harbor on it? Don't blame others if you yourself never initiate or take action towards what you want. Well, at least I'm fine with all the departures and arrivals of people every now and then~
I wouldn't wish next year to be a better year or all those bullshit, because if I only hope, but don't do anything, life will still suck forever. Anyways, HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS.
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