ponders

was pondering if i should blog today and i came up with a "yes" because i had nothing better to do (except homework)
remember i was watching this taiwanese drama called "love you" aka "drunken to love you" ? yea, i stopped at episode 10. BECAUSE i have homework!! and if i continue watching, my homework will be left undone.
speaking bout the drama, i have special thoughts and reflections to it. i actually feel QUITE similar to "tang ai wei" in the show. she is not the main lead lah. erm, similar in the sense that when both of us were in a relationship where the guy really love us, we didn't cherish it well enough. and when it slips away, we realise how much we love and need that guy, and really regretted what we did. but of course, its too late~~~ LOLOL
i won't say that it is a wrong to want the guy back, but it is definitely us to blame for not cherishing him right from the start. so yeah, we can't force the guy to come back to us, or blame whoever who wins his heart, claiming that she stole him from me. the decision lies on him, if he loves her, then so be it. even if we force him to come back, his heart will still not be here, and everyone is not gonna be happy... of course, we can try to win his heart back. but, never use dirty, despicable methods that will hurt anyone as it will just gain further disrespect and intolerance. if it is over between us, then let it be. it just proves that we're not meant to be and telling us that our missing puzzle is someone else. don't take every heartbreak as a torture, pain, or weakness. take it as an experience to grow and a learning point to reflect, understand, become more mature, and shape ourselves into a better and stronger person. hey hey hey, but this doesn't mean that it is fine to just anyhow stead/go into a relationship. a relationship requires true feelings bout each other. if you have no feelings to him/her, then don't make any commitment/promises just for the sake of having a relationship/experience. to conclude, when in a relationship, you have to be honest, not only to the other party, but also to yourself, whether you really love him/her or not. don't drag/ hide if you sense any problems or doubts. communication is the essence.

 antiseptic hand rub mum bought for me (above and below)

 changed wallet! (above)