the on and the off feelings

hey today is super exhausting!!! danced like mad due to mr. derek's birthday~ we did surprise dance for him, bought a cake, and did lots of stupid funny actions for him. he was touched and i hope that he will enjoy his life, not injuring himself again (:
btw, shared the hall with badminton and the NDP people because the dance studio was used for oral examinations. went back to dance studio at bout 4.30 when they were done.
gonna have chemistry valency test tmr.

 wth? (above)

i don't know. i really don't.
how is this supposed to be, how i am supposed to feel.
to life, to you, to them
is this right?
or is there no judgement to it at all.
to go without thinking, or to think deeper?
to give or to take?
to face it or let it pass away?
is it me or someone else?
am i doing to correct thing?
am i the one who is my real enemy?
to accept or to reject?
friends or lovers?
like or dislike?
i really don't know.