a lost victory

hey there, today as it is as the weather, my mood is stormy. not exactly sad, angry, or emo, but more of a wavy and unstable feel.
1) NERVOUS
alright, this feeling has been with me since last night and i had a hard time turning in... and it continued all the way until my performance ended. it was really scary especially after seeing how the rest of the competitors fair in the danceworks competition, which made me feel like crapping nonsense.. LOL but seriously, i was super nervous and scared because i really wanna excel in  something i cannot lose, which is dance~ and the nervousness was horrifying :O
2)HAPPY
great, as my school had two teams to take part in the competition, i got a chance to see how my fellow dancemates did during the competition, and i was really really enjoying their dance, feeling so damn happy for them! i think they did an awesome job and it really made me proud~
3)DISAPPOINTMENT
after all the excitement and wildness, the results were out.. of course, i wasn't please with it. not only did we not get into the finals, the artistic award that i've been aiming for was also not fated to come by... towards the teams that have taken part, i felt that actually there are some very potential dancers that didn't get into the finals which i kinda think that it was unfair... well but even so, since i'm not the judge, i can't make any judgement yea? and i believe the judges have their own preferences and opinions towards this danceworks competition~
4) TIRED
okay, this is the strongest feeling overall~ i'm so exhausted!! luckily i've finished my homework, if not i will faint... phew thank goodness this danceworks is over and i can finally rest well~ haha so i guess i'll go ahead to chill!! (:

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